So today has been some day. I recently broke up with a guy and today was the day he realized what he lost. Most if you read my early post I comment how he was great and awesome..heck even he could be the one. This is a guy who got down not once but twice on his knee with a ring no his mother's ring and promised to always be there and wanted to be with me. Thank Goodness I was thinking with my head both times and said no. I did explain it was to soon and needed time.
The guy was great in the beginning and was for some time. Then he went and cheated after the first time I said no. He cried, begged and promised it wouldn't happen again. So do to having strong feelings and falling hard for him I accepted his apology and moved on. Things were going very well again he was helping me with my Zynga project. Then he got upset for he felt I was devoting to much time to it. Yes i did and still do but its a passion and want answers etc. So we fought on and off then I balanced things out. So again things were good. Then one day it was so hot with heat index over 100 and asked him to give me and my daughter a ride to library. Well you would of thought I asked for a ride to the moon. He whined about how he took the day off to do nothing but mess with his car. REALLY??? You would let my 8 year old walk to the library in that heat so you could play with your car!!! She is my life, do wrong by her then you are done. So a few days went by before he apologized and admitted to being wrong and a jerk. Again I forgave, why oh why? For two weeks later, I see him on the street with another girl. Worse part is they were blocks from my house!!! WHAT THE??? So I text him and tell him to turn around and there I was. LOVE IT!!!!! :-) Walk up to him told him to lose my number and have a nice life.
That was a few weeks ago, so today he emails me. WHAT?? EMAIL REALLY? I don't want to hear anything I am done. So he tries calling, then he sends flowers. He sends red roses..HELLO IDIOT I HATE RED ROSES!!!! See you were listening!!!! So then he called and I answered not looking at caller id for I was waiting for a friend to call me back. Well he cried and cried, begged and begged, made promises I know he could never keep. I tried to explain to him that I was happy with my life just as it is. Me and my daughter, my writing, blogging and project I am working on. Now one project he was stilling helping me with even after the break up but now says he isn't helping anymore. What a jerk! Then tells me I won't get anywhere without him or survive without him...OH REALLY!!! Guess you really haven't met me. I am the woman who at the age of 30 found her husband dead. I survived that and made it, i can survive this and make it.
I did all I could and then some. I mean how many women take a guy back after cheating and treating her daughter the way he did. Should of listen to her she wasn't crazy about him to begin with it. I know that I put my all into it after mistakes I made in the past. No I am not perfect but I really gave this guy my all. I put my heart and soul into this relationship. I can't afford to do that again, not for him anyway.